[she knows she doesn't deserve this. she knows she's a li'l shit, just as selfish as Laphicet is, when it comes down to it. this offer is too good for her. way too good for her]
[and yet. . .]
[if there's one thing she's learned about him on this island (and honestly, she's learned many things), it's that when he gets that determined resolve in his expression, his mind is made up and he won't back down]
I'm already broken. I can't break again, remember?
[:T]
. . . but, hey. Tell you what. If you actually build that space. . . then I'll give it a try. I'll even pay rent, if you want. No promises I'll stay, though.
[she puts it in terms of "if" and makes no promises to stick around not because she doesn't trust him, or because she doubts the sincerity of his offer. she just. . . doesn't believe in herself. in her ability not to do something that'd totally ruin things, or her own fickleness and whimsical nature which could lead to her fucking off somewhere else. that's all]
[SHE KNOWS HERSELF!! SHE REALLY DOES!! although she thinks, deep down, that he does too. and if he knows her, and still makes an offer like this one, then. . .]
[christ she thinks she might be getting breathless again, and that's really really not fair]
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[she knows she doesn't deserve this. she knows she's a li'l shit, just as selfish as Laphicet is, when it comes down to it. this offer is too good for her. way too good for her]
[and yet. . .]
[if there's one thing she's learned about him on this island (and honestly, she's learned many things), it's that when he gets that determined resolve in his expression, his mind is made up and he won't back down]
I'm already broken. I can't break again, remember?
[:T]
. . . but, hey. Tell you what. If you actually build that space. . . then I'll give it a try. I'll even pay rent, if you want. No promises I'll stay, though.
[she puts it in terms of "if" and makes no promises to stick around not because she doesn't trust him, or because she doubts the sincerity of his offer. she just. . . doesn't believe in herself. in her ability not to do something that'd totally ruin things, or her own fickleness and whimsical nature which could lead to her fucking off somewhere else. that's all]
[SHE KNOWS HERSELF!! SHE REALLY DOES!! although she thinks, deep down, that he does too. and if he knows her, and still makes an offer like this one, then. . .]
[christ she thinks she might be getting breathless again, and that's really really not fair]